When life gets in the way

Do you ever wish you were better at something? I hate accepting that I’m not the best. Who wants to settle for being mediocre? But, if we were all the best, ‘best’ would lose its meaning.

I’ve applied for law school. I have a good GPA but just didn’t get the score I needed on the LSAT. I’m a slow test taker, and before the LSAT, that had never really mattered. I should have practiced more for the test in order to compensate for my weakness. But, life got in the way. Things that seemed so important then, don’t seem as important now. Anticipation of rejection is terrible- especially when it comes through.

Luckily, I did get into one school on partial scholarship. I’m still waiting to hear back from a few others but the odds aren’t good. I’ve accepted that the school I got into is the school that I’ll be attending. No, it’s not the school I had my heart set on, but it will still get me to the place I want to be.

It’s tough because we complain about rejection and not getting what we’ve worked so hard for instead of realizing that maybe we should have just worked harder. It’s easy to think we’ve done our best and blame our failures on outside factors. It’s a lot harder to realize that failure may just lie within us.
I’ve come to the conclusion that in order to be better at something, we have to work harder. We can’t make excuses. We have to practice and continue practicing until we succeed. We have to take responsibility for our actions and take control of our futures.